happy new years =D im ready to see what this year has to offer me, and the ones apart of my life

no goodnights anymore

so much

only so much one can do before they decide to give up.
and im to the point of fuck it

if u love them let them go, if you have to chase after them, they werent your's in the first place haha

i hate

that when he is gone, i fein for his touch whixh burns my skin & i must add that i love it, his kiss which is like the sweetest fruit, and just the feeling of his presence which makes my heart beat faster then it should. … . =/

i should tell u

i should tell you- rent

ROGER

I Should Tell You I'm Disaster
I Forget How To Begin It

MIMI
Let's Just Make This Part Go Faster
I Have Yet -- To Be In It
I Should Tell You

ROGER
I Should Tell You

MIMI
I Should Tell You

ROGER
I Should Tell You

MIMI
I Should Tell I Blew The Candle Out
Just To Get Back In

ROGER
I'd Forgotten How to Smile
Until Your Candle Burned My Skin

MIMI
I Should Tell You

ROGER
I Should Tell You

MIMI
I Should Tell You

BOTH
I Should Tell

Well, Here We Go
Now We--

MIMI
Oh No

ROGER
I Know--This Something Is
Here Goes--

MIMI
Here Goes

ROGER
Guess So
It's Starting To
-Who Knows-

MIMI
Who Knows

BOTH
Who Knows Where
Who Goes There
Who Knows
Here Goes

Trusting Desire - Starting To Learn
Walking Through Fire Without A Burn
Clinging - A Shoulder, A Leap Begins
Stinging And Older, Asleep On Pins
So Here We Go
Now We--

ROGER
Oh No

MIMI
I Know

ROGER
Oh No

BOTH
Who Knows Where - Who Goes There

Here Goes - Here Goes
Here Goes - Here Goes
Here Goes - Here Goes

my stewie pjs =]

this christmas is truuly great, im gettin my body back hah

i remember, it seems like yesterday. that i couldnt wait for santa to come, because he was the one thing that made my reality not like most, i believed in santa til i was 12 ahaha, its a shame i know but, ive always been a dreamer, someone who cant except reality like most can, there is definatly more to this big picture then the eye can see, and more than the mind can even stratch!. when i found santa wasnt real, it only took my reality and made it worth what? if there is nothing magical in this world, whats the point?the older i got the more i found there is magic in this place called life, something more amazing than santa. i realized this maybe 3 or 5 yrs ago when i was observing. i saw … .love, in every form. It amazed me to see how something could take soo many shapes and sizes, and it still does. love is the magic in this world that many seem to overlook or disregard. and that is why its powers, and strength are so weak now a days.
thats all i wanted to say haha <3

i have found love lls.

i got the baddest scraf in the land! ahaha

I

love

this

scarf! <3

merry christmas !

dec 24

is most def. the most stressful day outta the year, every year

the world should revolve around me

currently listening to little jackie - the world should revolve around me

haha

something i did . . kinda punnie but i like it

i cant wait

to get the dimple pericings and the medusa ahhhh :]

i like

i am more than excitied to be in the relationship im in, this christamas
i couldnt be happier.

this guy

so there is this guy, and we have had a kinda bummpy road, i guess you could say.
but i think it going to smooth out now(knock on wood)
i absoultely love his open mind and artistic-ness, his personality, and style.
he is actually quite amazing.
i garentee you would think the same.

love isnt an act

i wish

but don't forget

But don’t forget who you really are. And I’m not talking about your so-called real name. All names are made up by someone else, even the one your parents gave you. You know who you really are. When you’re alone at night, looking up at the stars, or maybe lying in your bed in total darkness, you know that nameless person inside you…Your muscles will toughen. So will your heart and soul. That’s necessary for survival. But don’t lose touch with that person deep inside you, or else you won’t really have survived at all.


Louis Sachar

The avatar

this was a spectacular 4 star movie in my book. James Cameron has done it again, first the heart rinching titanic and now this. this movie is beyond imagination, ever since i left the theater it has been on my mind. It has a very powerful inner meaning, and opens your eyes, to see how blind and ignorant we as beings are towards life and nature. the story is about an ex-Marine who is paralized waist down(Sam Worthington) who finds himself forced into the forest on an alien planet filled with exotic life forms. scientist creat Avatars, an transfer the human mind in an alien body, (Sam Worthington)finds himself torn between two worlds, in a fight for his own survival and of the natives of the land.


i was even more impressed with the casting, which was consisting of
Sam Worthington

Zoe Saldana

Sigourney Weaver

Stephen Lang

who all did an astonishing job help creat a superb movie experience
i incourage all to see this movie

i want to start new

i think ima start another blog. so i can rid of all the old
and so i can post my opinion on movies ahaha

i have trust issues

i have trust issues.
straight up
noone has proven shit.
who can i trust?
why should i trust them?

smh

im one depressed bitch hahaha

today was horrible

SO TODAY ....... i was suppose to go to south carolina with my ty baby, moms, sis one of her friends and pops. but. . . . .that whole plan went down the drain COMPLETELY, its a long story but basically, i ended up staying home wit mom. we had no transportation anywhere so we sat around and watch movies all day. i eat like a cow and was really missing my boyfriend and got more bored by the hour. I had past the point of miserable around 7:00pm. i have not been out the house or neighborhood in a week(other than school). i have school monday, and i refuse to go tuesday, when christmas is coming up extremely soon. then new years comes right after. and i have noone to bring in the new year with me :-/ smh
things are looking quite boring for me yall. and i refuse to let that be.

so bored it is ridiculous

me AND my good friend the mcchicken.

secrets

is it soo hard to claim me as your girl?
i look around, and nowhere am i found.
u can't claim me in anyway, its like im some secret locked away
u talk about yourself and what you do, but nowhere does it say . . . .in a relationship . .  .with who?
what am i to think when you can't claim me. . . .
what am i to say when i tell ppl tht you know and they had no clue . .

sounds like someones got a secret being held back if you ask me.

her. . .

this is my cousin, she is the one person that has proven to me that i can trust her with anything, and come to her no matter what the problem.we have been through so much together, bad and good, we've both seen each others tear, and brightest smiles.she is almost like a big sister to me. i love her for everything she does for me, and the advice she gives, even though we have had our differences. our friend ship stay's the same.

<3

ugh some ppl!

i hate when, you do so much for someone, and they act like
you owe them and that they cant do anything for u. .. . . . smh
i owe noone anything at all.

the truth is ....

i don't want your poems about how you feel about me
i don't want your bullshit sweet talk to make me feel better.
i don't want the a.m messages because, thats
the same game you gave the others before me and it makes me feel like every other female
whom's heart you held but, couldnt take care of.
i don't ever want to go to the park with you ever again, i don't want to step foot on it's grounds, because
you walked it with another with passion in your hearts.
i don't want excuses for every rumor/inccident that i confornt you about.
plus i know more then people think i do, i just choose to keep it to myself
i don't want a song, because now that you;ve spolied me i want a playlist aha
i don't want your sweet words or i love you's, because you only use them to make me un upset with you.
i want your words through your eyes, and lips

i hate you, but
because i love you
i hate saying love, because it's horrible.
but i love how your mind works, "crafty" . . .right?
i told myself from the get go i was in over my head, and i was right
your way out of my league, and i can't bealieve that any of this can even be.
never would i ever had seen these feelings for you coming.
they can feel so gud lyk im on a cloud, but then they can feel so wrong
and surprisingly im looking forward to see where this will take us.
because as mad as you make me, i've never been happier
<3

im not flawless

im not flawless,
i have blemishes
im not thin
i have curves
im not quite
i tend to be loud
im not very quick with thought
i have to take my time
im worrisome
i can't help i over think everything
im a dreamer
i like to get away
im fragile
i just want love.

i am your fool

Here i am, i am your fool
do as you will with me
i give you my heart, who's beats are undefined
do as you will with it
i'll give you my mind, with thoughts oh so divine about you
do as you will with them
i'll give you my lungs which breaths your air
do as you will with that
i'll give you my stomach which only hungers for more of you
my eyes who only want to glance at you
my lips who only want to become companions with yours
my ears who yern to hear your voice
my hands because all they want is to touch you

But............................

take my heart, and brake it
my mind, and ignore it
my lungs, and give no air
my stomach, and share no food
my eyes, and blind fold them
my lips, and kiss with no feeling
my ears, and speak nothing
my hands and not hold.

Then i will have been your fool . . . . .

gentelmen don’t

i think i just realized the alternate meaning of that song. smh it can mean many many things.

i heard

i heard a heart beat..........faster than the usual.