a positive movitating voice within my life

no one

no one wins.

just like my father . . that was never there

i know a guy, just like my father.
he has good looks
and a charming way
just like my father
he can get you wraped around his finger in a heart beat
just like my father
he thinks the world revolves around him.
he only thinks of himself
just like my father
he attempts to do so much, but in reality can't do any of it at all.
just like my father
he says that he cares, and he intends to,
after his needs are meet first
just like my father
he says one thing
and makes it sound promising.
just like my father
he hurts the people around him consistantly and doesnt think anything of it.
he plays to wooh is meee roll.
EXACTLY LIKE MY BOOJEE ass father who could give a rats ass about anyone but himself.
except the sad thing is this guy . . . he doesn't even know.


-and with that, thee shall live a misreble life.

sometimes

I really wish i was more experienced, with sex, drugs, alcohol, addiction, lust, depression and other things. So that i could relate to what others go through. Most the people I know have been involved with some kind of drug  addiction, alcohol abuse and sex drives on the daily. They talk about how they enjoy it, but hate that they want it so bad. I have only had sex twice  and injoyed it, I attment to have a craving for it sometimes, but I decided to save myself for  the one that will love me. I have drank alcohol a few times gotten tipsy maybe about 3 times. I have never touched a drug or smoked anything in my life time. I’ve had a cutting problem when I get over stressed. I had that for a few years. Finally got myself to stop and only when I become over whelmed, does it cross my mind.  . . . . . As dumb and insane as this is going to sound, I want to experiment with drugs , I want to get drunk, i want to have sex at least once with a guy that my feelings are rushing for. i want to feel what the ones I surround myself with feel. 

maybe im crazy.

been away for a while . . . . i know

I'm going to start talking more about issues and what i incounter through my days. =/

OO WHERE'D I GO!
O! THERE I AM
HEY ME AHAH =D
nice to see you again

i have this problem that know one really knows about  . . . it's been a problem for years now. idk how to stop =/ something is alwasys wrong

i didnt get to do this walk cause i had to work but,

R.I.P peace grandma pam, we may have never met but i still feel as though i knew you. ily always<3

zodiac's amaze me, truly! *check this*

Gemini-Sagittarius Compatibility

Airy Gemini and fiery Sagittarius will maintain an interest on a mental or intellectual level. Sagittarius has a sense of independence, great love for freedom, restrictions on that are not tolerable. Both signs are opposite. Gemini and Sagittarius are not demonstrative, have an immense touch of love, quick wit, are generous and cheerful. Gemini lacks in concentration and quick decision which Sagittarius has. Both are fashionable, fond of society and has no chance of separation.These two are at opposite ends of the celestial sky, so have everything to offer each other and are a very complementary combination.
It's said that the sign opposite you contains everything you lust for and lack and that's certainly true of this pair. Geminis belong to the sign of the lower mind, perfect for dealing with communications on a day-to-day basis. With Sagittarians, though, their brains have been broadened into a deeper and more profound path, towards philosophy and similar subjects. These Archers can think far beyond the realms of the Gemini and that's the clue to the success of this couple. Sagittarius can make those glib Geminians sit up and take notice.The twins are so used to ruling the roost intellectually, and yet they would be delighted to discover a Sagittarius who knows more than they do.Once these two have met, they'll set off on a voyage of mental discovery together. Even if they're merely mates, this will be a marriage of minds.

i need rehab!

i hate that im addicted, i hate that i can't get enough, i hate that i want more and more, i hate that i don't want to share, i hate that's all i think about, i hate that i could drop every other habit with a heart beat and without caring,  i hate that it brakes my heart when i can't have, i hate how good it makes me feel but when its gone, so is the high.
i hate that i feel like i need to go to rehab
beacuse, i am addicted . . .
to him ;)

smh

step it up!
i am not just any person mister! >:-/ gurrr

soo much better

he is better than a dream

dear all, it is 2010

time to stop the games and grow up.
get serious, or move to the back of the line.
beacuse i don't have time.

feelings

This is about being grown Feelings
Being mature
Yeah
Being brave
Can you be brave
Feelings
Listen

I'm emotional, Your emotional
Could be why we always argue our
Conversations short we can talk enough
Just become much to difficult
I Don't know what to do
I Don't know what to prove
This is more than me
And so much more than you
We must make it through said you and I
I can't decide

[Chorus]
I just can't decide
If it's you i want
Don't want to choose beteween Having you in my life
Or losing you for real
Cuz I've got feelings (i'll falling in love with our feelings)
Feelings
Because I've got feeling (yeah)
Feelings (I'm not afraid of the feelings babe)

i'm a stubborn girl
Your a stubborn guy
Could be why we fight all the time
If It's not your way
Then It must be mine
Can't communicate
Can't even compromise
I Don't know what to do
I Don't know what to prove
This is more than me
And so much more than you
Can we make it through
I can't decide

[Chorus]
I just can't decide (i can't decide)
If it's you i trust (trust babe)
Don't want to choose between (choose between)
Having you in my life
Or telling you goodbye
Because I've got feelings
Feelings (yeah)
Because I've got feelings
Feeling

We have to die alone though
Because I've got feelings
So dramatic Romantic
Ohhh I just can't pretend
That your just a friend
You took It futher
Passion still remains
Her we are again

Beacuse we got feelings
Feelings
Because we got feelings
Feelings
I can't even believe were here
After all we been through

by floetry

i have decided that i am going to start saving up for a beach trip.  . . . .i don't know with who but i'm going to do it haha here is my plan
i am going to save up enough for at least a week trip

~hotel
~clubs
~food
~and shops oviously
im am not saving up enough to pay for me and some other, just me this is my time to spoil myself
fuck everyone else =]

can't wait til june!!!

=]

feelings are mutual . . . .right

TATTO DESIGN

this is the most beautiful tatto i've seen yet!!! IM IN LOVE

seeking help

it say's to help control and avoid, seek help, scream, or talk to someone you trust . . . . but what if you don't trust . . .even the people you've known for the longest . . . . what do you do then.

=p

i wish that i could take a jounrney through your mind.

answers to why should i believe in love?

There's this thing called a dual universe that we live in. Where there is an up, there is a down. Love, is real, very real. You have to know it is because the deeper you fall into it, the more you are able to get hurt. When something to you is very special and you loose it, it hurts alot than just a mere toy you never really cared about. Love is real, believe in it. I've seen the good and bad side to love, but you got to decide, would u rather love fall, or fly...
-cheeze

because, it's love.
-annonimous

b-cuz if u give up the fight now u'll always have the what ifs nd u'll never kno if begining the fight was ever worth it!! u have to believe it gets better! no every piece of life is sunshine nd butterflies!! nd unfortuantly love isnt either! stop waiting for the storm to pass babe, u gotta learn how to dance in the rain! cuz believe me theres always a rainbow after sumtimes u just have to look a little harder! ♥
- lexi

you should'nt
-annonimous

why should i continue to beileve in love?

i'd have to say it really pisses me off when people say deaf and dumb . . . what in gods name makes people assume that deafs are dumb ? ? ?  . . .im sorry if im fucking missing the memo here. but i'd honestly like to know why in the hell people think deafs are dumb . . . just because they are deaf, doesnt mean a damn thing! wtf people, you are the fucking dumbasses