Confidence

I want to start painting again...
but i just don't have an inspiration.
I feel like my drawing and paintings are
bullshit sometimes.
and i really love to creat and draw, paint what's on my mind, but
im scared of self failure

Ha i had painting class and pulled out b'c i felt i was'nt as good
as the other students. I felt like a joke.

I saw a physic a while back and he wanted to read me for free.
He had told me that i would have two carreers, but i would have great struggle
beacuse i simply don't have confidence.
And that it would be a long time til i finally gained it.
i look in the mirror and i see a decent looking girl, how has fawls but is ok with it.
i sign languge, draw, paint, design, sing, dance,
and i feel as though ..............................i will never be anything.
like, im not good enough.

But im going to try to start new, and show myself that everything i do is perfect, the way it is.